Tuesday, June 23, 2009

DEEPLY HURT !!!

frustrated !
fed up !
really tired...
why does my journey need to be treat like this ?
damn sad now ....
no one who know what my feeling's right now...
arguing with dad , and get's bad conversation with the love...
dad were always wishes the wish that he want...

scholded me when i was back home late...
i had done nothing wrong !
i am not doing those bad stuff to injured people's or what...
just a bit late home...
not over then 12... i have gaving me a limit time...
is that too over for me??
dad's said that i din't said where i am going...
scholded me ...
when i said where i am going...
get scholded again...
responsible and no responsible is the same...
i am honest to u but u were said im telling u lie...
what does u HUMAN want from me ??
wonder that u really wan me to piss off from u forever ??
everyday hear the same thing from u.. i was really bored !!
im sad ok !
i dont wish to have a family like this !!
this is not the oldies year...
why my future and life must be control by u !
i had my way... my choice...
why i need to follow what u said ?
theres no point what u said ...
all were also rubbish !!
huh !! T.T ..
the one who i love were piss me off...
the first time he hangup my phone....
there's no ppl who do this to me before...
that time he was angry with me...
i msg back...
now is the second time he hang up my phone...
there no any call, miss call even a msg from him....huh!
still remember hw v started our relationship...
get through together...
the happies moment...play,joke together...
get through the hardest way together...
when u/me were sick...
even sometime both of us were bzying with working...
but in my heart i've really loved u and miss u deeply...
i am a person that full of emo,jealousy,angry etc ...
that u were always said that...
i know that i am not good enough...
not good as what u think... not smart,brave and helpfull that what u wish..
still in my mind...
what u told me... that u got use a very big voice to schold your ex..
i am very scare....
can't imagine that will u be treat me like this when v get together longer..??
or after a year ?
T.T ...
i know u are not a patience person to be willing wait people
or even teach people...
i am sorry that i am dumb enough...
i am trying harder to learn...
i really dont know why i cant be the smarties that what u want...
i am sorry bii ...
u were the guy who i really LOVES so much...
i had never try to love anyone that i love him and he does love me too..
but i am SAD now ...
u r not by my side ...
leaving me alone... T.T
im emo to u ...because i wrong or anything..
u angry me ...

hang up my phone ...
thats all ....
and u sleep ...............
in my mind ... no one knoe ...
tell = no tell = probably wrong
T.T


Saturday, June 20, 2009

Sebastian Tan birthday

its abang birthday..Sebastian tan..
the boss !!
abang went for a trip next week..
.
and, we celebrate earlier...
after working, both of us preparing for tonight..
which the location is at abang house..
haha...let's see ....

discuss
something, while waiting for abang home....


get suprise when see us and the most important 'auntie' .
sebastian mom .. not going out station cause celebrate abang birthday....


play some games...

now u pass it now u don't ?

finally kena...

take one

take two

take three ...

Friday, June 12, 2009

Fufill with suckers LIFE

ginz with a suckers life !
seems my life never fuffill the emptyness with greatest life ...
everyday just suckings the same things ...
and non stop just sucks sucks sucks !!!
sucks with everything i had now .
there's no one understand me !! no one listen to me !!
no one trusted me !! no one know what i'm feeling right now !!
and pls ... im stupid kay !! i admit it .
pls do not judge me !! i had my own personality .
right now i'm very emo !! emo !! and emo !!!
im very tired bout these those things .
when will it be an ending for me ?

Monday, June 8, 2009

Last day Venus/celebrate birthday

the last day of our colleagues venus ..
memorable ...
a friendly and a kind person that i meet since i
was the first day in pepito hair studio .
still remember when v went out for the first outing to fraser hill..
that time i was sucks with that places and she was accompany me
sleep at living room .
until i fall sick and both of the guys and venus accompany me sleep
together . =.='
thx ya guy's .. and sure wont forget venus !! thx ..

aniways .. wishing u all the best ...
pepitorianz misses u ...